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Apparently when you take someone off your friends list on myspace, you continue to get your blog subscription posts from them. Yippee. There were three from Ron, and I saw exactly what I didn't want to. In addition to the fact that he hung out with Holly (the hot blonde girl that taught in Germany who is "so perfect" for him), he is apparently also going out on a date with some customer at the bank that gave him her number.

Why is it so easy for him to move on? I refuse to let myself think that I didn't mean that much to him, but sheesh, in the past week that we've been broken up, that's two girls. I've thought about dating exactly zero. Call me old fashioned, but I guess I need more than a week to recover from a serious relationship before jumping in the dating pool again.

Now my next question is, how do I unsubscribe to someones blog?

It's been a week now. I feel awkward, weird. I haven't really gone back to my single life (okay, we can blame that on the fact that I'm living with my parents this month).

My coworker is 22 and married. They met two years ago, and married in November. She's an American Democrat, born in the poor parts of Miami. He's an African born and raised in England with live-in servants, who came to America for "Univeristy". He's also very right-wing Republican. We had a nice talk about how opposites attract. I guess in most instances, opposites do attract. Unfortunately, once you get past attraction, there's no substance to the relationship, because the two people are so different. I guess all that crap about "Love is all you need" really is worthless.

I got a letter from S.A.L. today. I don't remember doing it, but apparently I sent him a [myspace] letter about the break-up letting him know he was right (he had guessed our fate after reading about our religious differences months ago). He told me he wasn't one to get advice from, because he and I are living by two different sets of morals. Long term goals vs. Short term goals. I think I actually needed his "short-run" perspective. I wish I were outgoing enough to live that way sometimes, but other times I'm glad to have my few very close friends and be relationship oriented. Maybe it's all linked to beer, who knows. I guess a very small part of my point here was that even Steven, who I had a big crush on for...7? 8 years? couldn't make me stop thinking about Ron. Not when he and I were together, certainly, but not now either. If there's anyone that could hit me up with a crush it's him, so I guess I'm doomed. Either that or I'm normal when it comes to recovery rates...which means I need 2 3/4 months, half the length of the relationship, before I start dating again. Not that I've ever really "dated" anyway, but you get what I mean.

That's all I have to say for now, I guess.

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tboneblue
Aug. 1st, 2006 11:55 pm (UTC)
Moving on
In response to your message, I'm not ignoring you. I'm just not ready to talk on the phone.
Regarding dating, hanging out with Holly is just that. Hanging out. She has a boyfriend and I'm not ready to date anyone. Yes, I have a phone number from someone from the bank. Will I call it? At some point probably, but only in the context of friendship because anything other than that at this point would be premature, irresponsible, and unfair to any parties involved.
thisgirliknow
Aug. 2nd, 2006 12:07 am (UTC)
Re: Moving on
I didn't know she had a boyfriend, I thought you had mentioned she was single. Any new "friendship" with a girl is likely going to be more than that, or so it seems for most people. A girl who gives you her number isn't looking for a friend. I'm sorry if it's weird for me to even read about 'only friendship,' but it is. I don't want to think of you hanging out with someone who you think is so perfect for you, or getting numbers from people who like you.

Anyway, I guess I'm somewhat glad you told me that it wasn't really anything. I know that we'll both be moving on eventually, and that it will still be hard for the other person when it happens (assuming that it happens while we have some sort of contact).

I took you off my friends list, etc. more because I wanted to decide when I wanted to know things about you, rather than being informally plunged into something on my friends page, or reminded of what I don't have.

I know I said I didn't want to be friends (and that we weren't). I know I said I wanted a clean break. It's hard, though, because our relationship ended the way it did. Somewhat suddenly, and what I like to think of as even amicably. As in, we didn't have some terrible fight, cheat on eachother, and scream obscenities whilst throwing dirt at eachother. I feel like I've said this before, but maybe I only thought it. My point is, after the break-up pain isn't so fresh, I'd like to see you. I still care very much about you.

I also have information on Life University (other than the application and other forms you left at my apartment that you should expect to get tomorrow). Alan's uncle works there and he gave me some advice.

This comment is too long.
thebohomama
Aug. 2nd, 2006 12:13 am (UTC)
Opposites attract, true. But they always end messy. It starts out challenging, interesting, intriguing... but after a while you get tired of butting heads. I'm finally dating someone EXACTLY like me. It couldn't be more perfect.

Chin up!
thisgirliknow
Aug. 2nd, 2006 12:17 am (UTC)
I dated someone exactly like me. I got bored, there was nothing to learn.
thebohomama
Aug. 2nd, 2006 12:41 am (UTC)
I guess I should define "exactly like"... personality wise, not life-experience wise. I suppose the former can get boring, but after all of the conflicting situations I've been in having someone who reacts to things the same ways I do is a relief.
thisgirliknow
Aug. 2nd, 2006 12:51 am (UTC)
you're lucky, then :)
silicon_jesus
Aug. 2nd, 2006 01:10 am (UTC)
Yes, living with the parents isn't the best for one's dating life.

It always kills the mood when you have to procreate on the floor because the bed creaks and turn on the tv/radio to drown out the sound.

"David, what are you doing in there?!"

"Um...we're watching TV?"

"You open that door, right now!"

"Gimmie two more minutes!"
thisgirliknow
Aug. 2nd, 2006 01:20 am (UTC)
uh, well, it's not really like that for me. I just meant I haven't been in the same world that I generally live in, because I'm in daughter mode, as well as break-up mode, as well as moving-mode.

also, I doubt what you want to be doing is procreating.
silicon_jesus
Aug. 2nd, 2006 01:21 am (UTC)
I'm sorry, I was just trying to make you laugh. What's life without humor?
thisgirliknow
Aug. 2nd, 2006 01:21 am (UTC)
current, is what life is without humor. thanks
negativeneve
Aug. 2nd, 2006 02:08 am (UTC)
I found you funny...in case you wanted to know. :)
lizblizz
Aug. 2nd, 2006 06:04 pm (UTC)
He's already going on dates? WTF?

What an ass! Seriously. Even if you did the breaking up, that's pretty freakin' disrespectful to what you guys had. You were together for nearly six months, how could he move on that fast? Unless he's completely just rebounding...

Seriously, is this guy a robot?
lizblizz
Aug. 2nd, 2006 06:05 pm (UTC)
Just read his above comment... but still.
thisgirliknow
Aug. 2nd, 2006 07:24 pm (UTC)
yeah, his comment explains it. It still seems odd, especially if you read his myspace blog that talks about the customers number, and heard the way he talked about Holly in the past. Ugh.
thisgirliknow
Aug. 3rd, 2006 07:14 pm (UTC)
I JUST got this comment now.
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