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Justin. Justin Justin Justin. For years now he's been a huge part of my life, whether we were dating at the time, talking on the phone once a week, or seeing eachother almost every night (as friends). In mid to late February, I told him about Ron, and since then I've seen him once. For a long time he didn't take my calls, wouldn't answer the door, never e-mailed me back-- and then I thought it was all going to change when I went by his house and he actually answered and let me in (mid-April)! I sat with him while he did his taxes, with minimal talk and a lot of playing with Irie and Kilo (his dogs), but I figured that once I had been let in, I'd be allowed to stay in his life. Apparently not. Again, he's not answering my calls. Not e-mailing me back. I haven't gone to see him because I'm pretty sure that would just be a waste, and a hassle for him. It's not like I'm not trying. I'm scrappy, and I'm TRYING to scrap my way back into my best friend's life, and it ISN'T WORKING. It'd be much easier if he would atleast let me know what was bothering him. Then I could know how if I could fix it, or atleast why he's ignoring me.

I'm going to post some public theories of mine. A scale of 1-5 stars on how possible they may be, with 5 being the most possible

He hates me and never wants to see me again because I pissed him off for some reason.

He's still in love with me and doesn't want to pull me back into a non-relationship when he knows things are going well in the current one for me.

He's in a relationship and doesn't want ME to pull HIM back into a non-relationship when he knows things are going well for both of us with other people.

He's giving us both time to get over the three-and-a-half year on-and-off relationship so we can start truly as friends without any romantic feelings, and he's afraid that if we hang out together a Rob-like situation could erupt.

If he hates me, he needs to just tell me, so I can get over it already, or fix my wrongdoing. If he's in a relationship and specifically doesn't want to see me because he thinks it could mess it up for him and new girl, he should tell me, and I won't mind giving him as long as he needs to feel comfortable with being friends again.

IF, however, he's afraid of a Rob-like situation, or messing up what I have with Ron, he need not worry. What I have with Ron is SOLID.

Maybe it's good that for a little while I didn't see Justin, because I'm not sure we could have gotten this SOLID if for no other reason than the fact that I wouldn't spend as much time with Ron because occasionally I'd be hanging out with Justin, but at this point, WE ARE A ROCK, and no amount of what has been referred to as "charming smarminess" can break it.

I really, really REALLY miss my best friend.

EDIT I just called, and he answered (yes!) but he had to do stuff for work, so I asked him to call me later.. "we'll see." Uggg.


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May. 5th, 2006 01:52 pm (UTC)
I agree with the last theory. I even agree with his proposed reasoning a little. Your relationship with Ron is SOLID, but Justin isn't there and might doubt it. Ron might also appreciate your keeping a little distance from a guy who is an old and good friend, but also an ex-boyfriend who was involved in the messy breakup with Rob. Sometimes things can be hurtful just because they appear bad.
May. 5th, 2006 02:08 pm (UTC)
I doubt it's anything so selfless, sorry. I bet he just doesn't want to be around you while you're with Ron. It's probably hard for him. I agree he should tell you, but don't try to force it.
May. 5th, 2006 02:32 pm (UTC)
I agree.
May. 5th, 2006 06:59 pm (UTC)
OR He just enjoys holding all the power and knowing he can basically make you do whatever he wants.
May. 5th, 2006 11:56 pm (UTC)
like that other person says he jealous, and so he doesnt want to be around you when youre with Ron. You shouldnt be mad at Justin for that though it just means he likes you probably
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