News flash: 1000 people go to your school. On flute, you are probably better than atleast 980 of them (assuming there are some flute players who aren't in band).
But, because you ARE in band, and you ARE last chair, you still feel inferior.
This is just an example. Ish. It relates.
Theres a girl in my building who is a FANTASTIC flute player. She's probably a music major. She practices often, and when my windows are open, I can hear her well. When I think about how I play compared to how she plays, I feel badly about my playing. And then today, I realized that there are 36 apartments here, many of them fdouble and even triple occupied. Let's say 70 people live here minimum. I am *probably* the second best flute player here.
This was all psychologically deep a few minutes ago when I was composing this entry.