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May. 15th, 2005

Rob's apparently selling some sort of insurance now. He always told me his careers would always be in computers because that was what he loved. I'm inclined to think he's selling out, but I don't know the whole story... so I'll just be quiet.

As I said, I'm back online at my house. My computer is up on my (new, glass) desk, and I'm scared the huge monitor will fall through... but oh well. My little sister has a freaking 19 inch flatscreen, I'll see if I can work some Melissa-charm and get a flat panel monitor as well. Not that my parents haven't spent enough money lately, on all the house stuff.

All the painting is done, and it all looks great. So now we're just trying to move everything back in. Other than today, this past week has been a complete whirwind of working. Today, though, I slacked. Went to the Israel Independence Day party at Temple Israel (it was a joint party with Shomrei Torah) and then hung out some, then came home. All the productive things I did today I'm looking at right now: my computer.

I think I deserved today, after all the work I did this past week. It felt very good to finally rest.

Hmm... yesterday went to dinner at my friend Bobby's apartment to meet his girlfriend Sara. It felt super-weird to see him with anyone but Tracy, but then again, Tracy is married with a baby... I guess people move on. And speaking of Tracy, I brought my old photo album over to Bobby's so I could show Sara old pictures of him, and then later I had it when I went to go hang out with Justin (and his brother, brother's girlfriend, and brother's girlfriend's five year old kid) and he pointed at Tracy and said, "hey does she sell cars now?" She indeed does. She was the salesperson who helped Justin when he went to the Subaru place looking for a car. How weird. Tallahassee is so darn small.

I miss some of my Gainesville people tremendously: Andrea (though she's now in Melbourne), Stacy, and Darin, specifically. I definitely miss you others too, but without those three I think I'll eventually go sane (yes, said it correctly).

Kendal and Matt are married now, as are Adam and Andrea (diff Andrea). And of course Tracy and Jason... SO many weddings happening around me... you'd think I'd be disturbed or mad at the happy people.. and I'm not, I'm just happy for them. And incredibly happy for myself. The joy of life without Rob is greater than I could have ever imagined it. I'm not depressed at all anymore, and happier day-to-day, and just plain happier and better overall.

Not that I don't miss him, because I certainly do. I miss him very much. I think I can proudly say that I am no longer in love with him though. I don't know if there's some sort of gauge to test that, but that's how I feel. (Insert Captain VonTrapp phrase here).

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negativeneve
May. 16th, 2005 09:07 pm (UTC)
We still need to visit you. I'm leaving next Tuesday (Monday is Roy's bday). dum dum dum..
thisgirliknow
May. 16th, 2005 09:10 pm (UTC)
awww... Stacy, I can't believe you're going so far away. Right now my house is in a state of craziness, what with all the remodeling and such, so it'd be easier to meet you on (neutral?) ground. Just name it and I'll be there. As long as it's not tomorrow night (sister's band concert)
negativeneve
May. 17th, 2005 07:44 am (UTC)
neutral, hehe

Well...I wanted to visit Andrea (she doesn't know yet) so mabye we can meet up. It's far for you though..
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