March 19th, 2007

botticelli

Sore throat, busy day. ALL busy days.

After two days of feeling much much better, I woke up this morning with a super sore throat. So now I'm at work, but downing cough drops and feeling miserable. Why can't being sick be convenient to my job?

Today is going to be a looooong day. I finally went to bed around 2 after finishing hours of Statistics homework yesterday, woke up at 5:30, at work by 7. I get off work at 5, at which point I have to race over to school to take a make-up test for Statistics. Then at 7 I have my actual Stats class, and then when that's over, I have to finish a project for Educational Technology.

And it's not like I have crazy amounts of free time on Tuesday or Wednesday, either, which would be nice so I could catch up on things missed on Monday.

Sometimes I wonder if all this is worth it. Have I picked the right priorities? Should I be working full time as I am? Or, should I be taking out loans and going to school? Should I be working full time and taking out loans anyway so I could buy that awesome BCBG dress?

The problem is, I'm so busy doing all the things that make me me, that it feels like I don't have any time to actually be myself and enjoy my existence. I don't have time to spend time with my friends, and I think I've learned that the idea of a relationship is risible. And yet I continue to choose those priorities that aren't the ones that I'd like to think I want. Instead, I spend hours upon hours a week in class and doing homework. I guess right now I'm in some sort of 'means to an end' mode, where I do the things I have to do so that I can make a better life for myself when it's all over. It just seems sometimes that I am sacrificing way too much for something that I'm not even sure I want.


I changed my direct deposit over to a different account (I got ING checking) and it takes a couple cycles to kick in, so that's why I didn't get my money on Friday. They have a check for me.