December 24th, 2006


New Years Resolution

I haven't been updating lately, at least not anything real. Consider it because I'm busy, and haven't had time. Or because I have too much going on to update all about, so I don't write any of it.

Anyway, I have exactly one new years resolution, and I think it will help me a lot if I could do this. It's not about getting good grades.. I plan to do that anyway. It's not about making up with my friends, because really of the two people that I "should" make up with, one has to figure it out in his own time (and hopefully will) and the other I really don't care to be friends with. It's not going to be about doing a better job at work, losing weight, being cleaner.. none of it.

It's a simple resolution really, but one I need to work a lot on, and I don't know if it's possible to change about oneself, but I'm sure as heck going to try.

I'm going to be more laid-back. Trust me, I need to be. I'm incredibly picky and uptight and not very compromising. I complain too much, and I care about the minor things way too much. I need to focus on the big picture and just relax and go with the flow. I don't know how exactly to work on this, though. I've tried to be more laid-back before. What happens, is I let things slide, let people have their way, and after awhile, instead of letting things slide, I realize that everything has built up into this huge grudge that I just cannot get rid of, and then my passive aggression takes over. So this year, instead of either trying to fix every problem when it comes up, or waiting to have a huge pile of problems with someone, I'm just going to try to take a couple of breaths, think of the big picture, and move on. If it's still annoying me, I'll bring it up, and if its not, the issue will have hopefully been let go, forever.