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I don't even have a pl

I'm awake. I shouldn't be, but I am. I am having the darndest time trying to get anything close to a regular sleep pattern. At least I should be grateful that I'm sleeping at all-- the past week, I wasn't.

I'm starting to come to terms with leaving my job. The Rabbi said something Friday night about how counting the Omer is really about taking things one step at a time, and I'm choosing to take that and run with it.

Step 1) Money.
  • Figure out exactly how much I need each month to survive, minimalistically.
  • Figure out how to get student loans, talk to Sallie Mae
  • If necessary, figure out part time job.
  • Get a roommate. (Anyone interested?)

Step 2) Insurance. Get added to my dad's family plan. Florida law now states I can be covered to age 30.

Step 3) Job. Give Elbit enough time so that I'm not leaving anyone with a pile of work and no idea how to do it.

  • Talk to JP on Monday to figure out a good time for me to leave.
  • Talk to Kim and Trish about the benefits admin parts of my job, the invoice parts, the Ceridian/Oracle parts.
  • Get my name off of EVERYTHING Elbit, make sure new names are on there.

Step 3) Classes. Register for at least 18 hours in regular semesters, 9 hours for summer. Finish school MUCH more quickly.

Step 4) Profit?

Just kidding. Step 4 is not being so stressed. Being able to feel like I am 24 and not 40. Not wanting to pull my hair out, not always on the edge of a nervous breakdown.

This is such a major life change. I'm really hoping that everything will work out and fall into place. I'm hoping I don't lose whatever special quality I have, or that people think I have, for working a full time job while going to school.

Most of all, I'm hoping I can do this, rather than letting myself live this existence any longer. I applaud the fact that many of you can handle such a stressful life like this, but I just don't think I can.


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Apr. 19th, 2009 11:26 am (UTC)
You're making a good decision.
Apr. 19th, 2009 09:29 pm (UTC)
Thanks. It's really hard to believe I am. Who gives up a job, in this economy??
Apr. 19th, 2009 10:34 pm (UTC)
You're one of the few people I would trust to be able to get by in this economy and without a job.
Apr. 19th, 2009 10:40 pm (UTC)
thanks, truly.
Apr. 19th, 2009 11:30 am (UTC)
Be extremely careful with Sallie May. Read the fine print. They screwed me hard, and in a very unpleasant way.
Apr. 19th, 2009 09:29 pm (UTC)
thanks for the warning.
Apr. 19th, 2009 12:05 pm (UTC)
Fill out FAFSA to see how much in federal loans you can get.
Apr. 19th, 2009 09:20 pm (UTC)
None, for this year. Make too much :(
Apr. 19th, 2009 04:19 pm (UTC)
I must say a quote from Benjamin Button comes to mind(see below).
If you find you are not liking who you are or the situation you are in, then change it. Very few people in this world have the ability to truly change their life. They just constantly dig themselves deeper, growing ever more sad and disappointed with their own lives.

I am very happy and proud of you for finding the strength to change your life for the better. I hope it all works out for the best and your life drastically improves into the way you want it too.

"it's never too late to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again." -Benjamin
Apr. 19th, 2009 09:30 pm (UTC)
thanks :)
Apr. 19th, 2009 05:34 pm (UTC)
I definitely second the idea about looking into federal loans. If you haven't already done the FAFSA, do it now and then go to financial aid and explain about your EFC. You want to take out as much in Stafford/Perkins/PLUS (if your parents are willing) as you possibly can. Get on fastweb and wherever else and apply like crazy for scholarships. Even the $500 help if you win.

I think getting a part-time job isn't a bad idea. Is the library hiring? That would be a great place because it could also help you get library experience, which will help if you apply to MLS programs. My mom's office is hiring, see here if interested. The pay isn't much but my understanding is that the work isn't too hard.

If I move back to Tallahassee, I'll need a roommate (and a place to live). But I won't know about that until July, at the earliest.

Good luck with everything. I think you're making a fantastic decision and one I would never have the guts to make.
Apr. 19th, 2009 09:22 pm (UTC)
I'm not eligible for any Federal money this year. Next year, that will of course be different.

Library posts positions in an elevator somewhere, I remember. I just have to figure out which one. I'm betting it's probably the staff one. A little crazy, huh. I'll definitely check out that position. I'm really really hoping that I won't need to have a part-time job, so I can focus completely on school, but I'm betting that it won't be possible :(
Apr. 19th, 2009 10:09 pm (UTC)
Given all the craziness that goes with private student loans, I'd say getting a part-time job of 15-20 hours a week isn't a bad idea. I worked that much all through undergrad (and now through grad school) and it isn't bad if you manage your time well.

You may want to check out the FSU and FAMU employment websites, plus the Leon County website (for any LCPL jobs).
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