Much like pineapples, I am hardcore. (thisgirliknow) wrote,
Much like pineapples, I am hardcore.

I don't even have a pl

I'm awake. I shouldn't be, but I am. I am having the darndest time trying to get anything close to a regular sleep pattern. At least I should be grateful that I'm sleeping at all-- the past week, I wasn't.

I'm starting to come to terms with leaving my job. The Rabbi said something Friday night about how counting the Omer is really about taking things one step at a time, and I'm choosing to take that and run with it.

Step 1) Money.
  • Figure out exactly how much I need each month to survive, minimalistically.
  • Figure out how to get student loans, talk to Sallie Mae
  • If necessary, figure out part time job.
  • Get a roommate. (Anyone interested?)

Step 2) Insurance. Get added to my dad's family plan. Florida law now states I can be covered to age 30.

Step 3) Job. Give Elbit enough time so that I'm not leaving anyone with a pile of work and no idea how to do it.

  • Talk to JP on Monday to figure out a good time for me to leave.
  • Talk to Kim and Trish about the benefits admin parts of my job, the invoice parts, the Ceridian/Oracle parts.
  • Get my name off of EVERYTHING Elbit, make sure new names are on there.

Step 3) Classes. Register for at least 18 hours in regular semesters, 9 hours for summer. Finish school MUCH more quickly.

Step 4) Profit?

Just kidding. Step 4 is not being so stressed. Being able to feel like I am 24 and not 40. Not wanting to pull my hair out, not always on the edge of a nervous breakdown.

This is such a major life change. I'm really hoping that everything will work out and fall into place. I'm hoping I don't lose whatever special quality I have, or that people think I have, for working a full time job while going to school.

Most of all, I'm hoping I can do this, rather than letting myself live this existence any longer. I applaud the fact that many of you can handle such a stressful life like this, but I just don't think I can.
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